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They were prisoners of the Keepemins, those people in the East. They were communists, more evil than the devil on the make, and I was free. That was what we west were - forever Free. I didn't take sides. A true investigator must have no bias. Free-world against tyranny, tirade and tuff-titty. I dwelt and travelled in the land of feeling.
Being there - is it what they told you in the past or is it how it is feeling now ? German hostility yes, but mostly not. Now and then I ran into a Nazi entitlement collector. They were very official types. They always wore uniforms, not necessarily obvious of course, more mind sets. If it were-not for them - who knows what ? I should thank them for being my superior.
What's it like being superior ? I witnessed it first hand and up close with a sometimes friend in Song Lake. He had a look in the eye sometimes, his self-assessment sky-high, that I have only ever other-seen, in Germans and not that often thank God; and a radio disk jockey in San Francisco in nineteen sixty-eight or so.
I was there when sometime friend made the decision. "It's going to be all about me", is what he said. And he changed and so became. And I vowed to remember that, and treat him accordingly. But I also remember thinking, don't think I-would make such a decision. Seems presumptuous somehow. I wonder if I thought out the ramifications ? I know that in seeing that look in latter times, I would think, I wouldn't trust 'em with a wink. Maybe it is a German gene, but my never having had it, maybe because I am only a half-blood.
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