Year Two

When I went home and got off the bus on Mission Street, half block east on Precita, then right on Coso and the beginning of the trudge up-hill to Winfield, a big limousine was parked where limousines never park and are never seen in the neighborhood. Was it the same guy ? Darkened windows, I've never known for sure but otherwise quite a co-incidence. A warning, but not too close to home. How did they know where I lived ? This sort of thing would happen all the time in those sometimes everyday.

There were two dynamics to observation. One was that one observes things as one's ordinary act of moving through reality like looking ahead. The other was a sort of intuitive spontaneity, as for some reason one suddenly turns around and sees something unexpected behind. The reason for turning, some unconscious spontaneous intuition, which produces another level of random observation. This would indicate a sphere of awareness unknown to the conscious mind, when this spontaneous observation produces themed correlations like someone following me with a particular kind of hat. The person would not be the same but the hat would be, so the hat was following me and not the person. The hat was symbolic.

The whole process was unconscious. I would not consciously look for symbolic elements like the hat for that would be like following sign posts of a sign-guided tour. That would preconceive the selection of some symbolism perhaps that the unconscious could not produce in series. Observation was seemingly random. However some unconscious mechanism must make the selection as seemingly purely random.

Unconscious or random selection would cause a comparison with a previous impression in terms of commonalities and a third with the previous two. Commonalties are compared between entities which would otherwise never be compared. The hats are the same style but different colors symbolizing friends or foes or religious and political. White hats - white cars.

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