Year Two

It was an oval-on-top shaped-base about six inches high; twenty-four inches long and twelve inches wide; with a drawer in the bottom base. Out of the center of that was a cylinder eight inches in diameter that rose like a post about twelve inches, and then mushroomed out into a bulbous oval spherical shape, with a cylinder on top of that; which for me was an inverted lamp shade. A light was to go inside and shine out through the top. I bisqued it, and it had no warpage at all. Then I set about figuring out a design and painting it. I started to keep it on the sewing machine display, in the windows corner when not working on it; and not quite finishing it; and it sat there for some weeks or months. Eventually I came to realize that people were coming to see it but nobody said anything directly. Then one day I saw it. The oval on the bottom was the female vulva, the cylinder with bulbous head was a penis, that had a crown on top.

Now I realized that I created a work of art and maybe my first one. But it was embarrassing as well, a completely unconscious creation, as a declaration of sexual prowess, something I did not feel I deserved at all; and I felt also as bad, that other people knew what I had created before I did, and now what was I going to do, admit I didn't know ? And was I something of an idiot, or not. But certainly I must have assumed it was an interesting concept, art that no one acknowledges.

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