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The problem with avoidance of sin was having to conform to certain expectations which might contradict one's feelings. This might be accomplished by denying altogether that the feelings existed. Rather than feelings, control of them can lead to freezing up and looking like an idiot, my middle name in those days sometimes.
Got to be very good friends with the Professor. He was educated, a college
professor and well read. I was fairly well read. I did a lot of reading in those days. He was Jesuit trained and taught part-time at the University of San Francisco. He, Jan and
the five kids, moved up on Elsie Street where the wood shop was when SusieQ and Marko left their house to go to South America. The Professor was serious with the Japanese stuff.
In these times I used to walk around the city. While living in the Haight it was Golden Gate Park everyday. What a beautiful place, especially as it was completely overgrown in those days where I took neglect to be great park keeping. The idea is to not be able to see outside to the city and some of the streets that meandered through the park. The idea is to feel inside with as little street noise as possible. Of course there was always the possibility of the occasional ambush in exceedingly overgrown places by robbers or rapists, which pushed the point of better if more unsightly pruning.
I walked in the Mission District, Down-town, North Beach. I found it endlessly fascinating. Somewhere along the line I had learned
to see everything as a work of art, as if my eyes were surveying a painted picture or
photograph. I walked mostly mid-morning. I liked the morning light and the quiet streets with hardly anyone around to spoil my picture perfect anybody, anywhere in world fantasies.
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