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At some point it occurred to me - I now have another Identity and now that needs evaluating. I am an intellectual man using a monitor from the context of the body of a woman as a watcher. The body is male with a trans-gender mind. Don't want male self as a monitory. Prefer it be different as a woman apparently. Don't want to watch myself as myself.
I would see it and myself through their eyes.
They were watchers as perspectives outside myself. I evaluated myself from those perspectives. Then I wondered about evaluating that perspective, from another outside perspective, and that from another and so on. At some point I got tired of all this self-seeing. I was looking for a composite character as a synthesis.
I was watching myself as an artist. It may have been the first synthesized archetypal identity. Or perhaps a political character, each had a rational. The rationale became synthesized down to commonalities of objectives.
At some point I wanted to create a composite character and be it. This may have been the beginning of the creation of the soul. But what was going to be my monitor my comparative authority ? I was going to build it like I built sculpture. And it was going to be mine and always a work of art in progress. It would be my essential character, the rule master, the character that watched my character.
This would have to be one character comprised of a multiplicity of characters. And the thing was to synthesize them down into a few much like the Greek pantheon or the Astrology signs or Tarot characters I had been introduced.. So even today, it is still a work in progress.
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