Year Two

Sixth grade the audience - I was in the front of the class. The story I heard was the teacher had been in love with my father. She was the sister of the state governor. I had my desk next to hers facing the class to her right. I was in my father's place had my father not been a cad, which he probably was knowing his history. In that symbolic light she may have used me consciously or unconsciously and somehow got even. I got your kid where you should be. Would not have done her that much good. Don't think it would have much mattered to him. So now I was famous. She was always good to me and in some ways I think she loved me like she loved my father. I always liked her. And I didn't know any of this till years later.

So who is my character ? I am an artist/actor. So who is Anka ? She is my audience most of the time. I like to show-off. Make me perform in demeaning ways. Manipulate me with what I want - to sucklulate you. Just feels the best. Give me a break ! Actor/actress communicates, as some form of interpretation of experience. Create a first impression which gives one a glimpse of the character. Then it is communication psychology, after that to make a statement or ask a question.

So what am I trying to communicate ? I am trying to communicate a consciousness. The consciousness of the enlightened state. A glimpse of feeling-knowing soul. A transcendence of that. What would I decide - no matter ? The Cognizance, Condition or Context ?

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