Cheryl

To be in love with everything is to consider everything as important. Love is inclusive of everything if everything is inclusive of one. However the most common form of love is an intellectual representtion, as paradigm and archetype, of what love should be and what one should love. For example descriptions and representations of the Virgin Mary in the mind would be what love should be. Everything in reality is assessed in terms of love by comparison to the archetype as degrees of correspondence. That which matches the archetype should be loved and that which does not is not loved and often hated. This is usually called conditional love. It has nothing to do with love. Conditional love is about what is suppose to be important, and especially, the more important something is, the more it should be loved or at least respected. God would be the most important thing and thus the most loved. If the devil is the opposite of God, then the devil should be least loved and hated. Since neither the normal conception of God nor the devil would be a real experience, the concepts would be said to be derived from an external source not of the self. Who decides what is important would determine what love is and what is loved.

Talked to Adele this morning at the Senior Center. I see her one day a week. We usually talk for about ten minutes. She was a lifelong schizophrenic, bipolar and had panic attacks. Eighty percent or more of her kidneys are gone, from them having her on Lithium for most of her life. She does look somewhat frail and she is younger than I am. Since I have been talking to her, most of her symptoms are gone and no more panic attacks. I asked her did I do it and she says yes. I had explained to her what these things were. And we agree that understanding problems helps alleviate them. But then she also enjoys reading the bible and seems to find comfort in that. Her latest therapist, she says, was also of some help. Said she had acupuncture for the first time. Said she fell asleep for thirty minutes while under the needle treatment. Said she felt wonderful afterwards.

So now her problem is worry. She worries and worries. I said you must be really bored. You got nothing to worry about. You have a million friends, you live with family, you got money. What could you be worried about, except maybe your health. She said you are right. I said it must be negative thinking. "Yes it is negative thinking". I told her that I woke up this morning and that this day's idea seemed to be - 'internal world'. Off the top of my head - I said, it is easy to think negative thoughts - The outer world is very specific, limited, inflexible, perhaps uncontrollable and futile, uncompromising and not the way we would like it to be - which can all be thought of as negative or difficult attributes. It can be easy to think of these conditions in the negative. It is harder to think positive thoughts because often the kind of things we think of as positive may not happen in the real world. It can be much harder to think positive thoughts if those positive thoughts are not generally manifested in reality.

You need to create an internal world. You make the world positive. You can create your own reality. Ask most people what is going on and they say nothing - nothing much. What's new? Nothing. You can create a much more interesting world. It is in interacting with the world and people and how you interact. You engage people in some specific way. You don't let them just walk by and nothing ever happens. You make positive things happen. I could just walk by you and never say anything. Nothing happens. On the other hand look what we got. So maybe we can collaborate again like we did on the bipolar. Maybe you should try to create an Internal World based on the positive. Meanwhile I will work on this as psychological theory. Then we will get together next Friday. Well she agreed to that. 'K got to go. She is so sweet.

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