Invision

So the gist of his lecture was the great life they had discovered out in the wilderness and wildlife, a million miles from nowhere, and all the intricacies of the life. SusieQ was eating sunflower seeds. She was spitting the husks onto the floor. It was a mess when we left. I must say it was not something I would have done and somewhat disconcerting to me. The lecture was in a small movie theater and was sparsely attended. I could not help but notice that the lecturer was appalled at this expectoration. I remember thinking it was giving hippies a bad name.

The nuclear nightmare had influenced my life. It was in my teenage years - 'live it up while you still can'. In my analysis period, I came to view this premise as just an excuse for the perpetuation of my inadequacies, of which I was helpless to correct. I changed my thinking. But this sinister nuclear annihilation problem was significant. It was a serious study. Why were these people so f****d up ? was serious stuff.

Would it not be irresponsible to not to use power if one believes they have it ? It was not that I would regret it. Regret was personal and had no part in it. This power was beyond personal, although one may exhilarate in egotistical power tripping. This could or should be about larger consequential considerations than oneself. It was about humanity and the greater planetary implications. But then there was the argument, as suggested to me by my occult follower friends, that change does no good; that all forces are balanced and change in one direction only provokes the opposite some place else. At some point I had to agree.

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