Invision

Also there was the argument of personal karma, which could not be discounted. But then personal karma is a bit self-absorbed, when considering the general problems of the human condition. I made some important decisions. I decided that if one had power, the responsible thing would be to use it. Not an easy thing to be sure.

It happened one evening in the kitchen at the table. I was now offered anything for myself or conversely for others, and I utterly believed it in that moment. This thought came to me with the power of the original epiphany. It came to me later that it was like the Temptation of Christ. “All these things I will give you, if you fall down and worship me". I could have all the power I wanted and whatever. It flashed through my mind how such a thing could be possible in a completely logical way. Using the concept of objectives, to make every present thing into a future thing, or turning every subject into a means of acquirement, could probably produce big things.

But this was an offer of sheer power for oneself. It was definitely tempting. But it made no sense to me. I think I had already rejected this in the army in DC. I had decided that to acquire physical power, one would have to partake in the system, and that the system would change one more than one would change it. It also occurred to me that choosing for oneself, even if it was the greatest material power possible, would be limited to maintaining a system of my own construction, as my own glorification in the power to have power, where of my everyday reality, I would use and exploit my resources to maintain and obtain agendas as already given ends.

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